Monthly Archives: February 2015

Week 20- The Past Is A Blast!

How are fear, guilt, anger, unworthiness and hurt feelings great tools for expanding the comfort zone?

Fear, Guilt, Anger, Unworthiness and Hurt Feelings; The simple act of contemplating these emotions and how they have affected, directed and impacted so many events in my life seems to bring up a million questions for me. As I sit quietly and study them individually I recall certain moments where each of them has had a major influence in my life. I find it freeing to be able to look back and analyze or Focus on how it truly made me feel at the time, I realize today because of the MKMMA I could attach any other thought, feeling or emotion and maybe feel a little better about those past moments in time but I would rather recall how I actually felt at the time and how those feelings were responsible for charting some of the course direction in my life, some good some not so good, either way I have the opportunity to look back, adjust and determine for myself how I can use that feeling and that moment as a positive for my future self, I am the master of my emotions and I decide.

Don’t Leave The Past Behind, Don’t live in it, Learn from it!

nothing goes away
yesterdays junk

Week-19 The Power of Fear

Until about 6 months ago I thought I understood what it meant to be an “Observer”my how things can change. I know that we are all surrounded by or exposed to more negativity than probably any other time in history due to all of the available outlets that pelt us daily. In a recent conversation with my son who is also working on his future self, we talked for some time on just how deeply imbedded the old blueprint truly can be. Both of us have experienced several inexplicable events since starting our journeys and we know that they are the direct result of the power within.

As we talked and continued to reflect on those events and the changes we were both feeling we asked each other simultaneously the same question, if we know that the power is within and we can increase our power of understanding and improve ourselves through consistent focused thought! why in the hell is it so difficult to break the cycle of on again off again in the process of these exercises? I don’t think either one of us came up with an answer we could appreciate or take to task, but we both knew that it was a victory just in asking the question of ourselves, it truly was a breakthrough. The take away for both of us is that we have experienced wonderful events and have seen tremendous changes in ourselves and many around us, I think for the two of us that is enough for right now to stay committed and stay the course.

I believe we both decided that the benefits we have seen far out way the the actions of the past and for that I am grateful. Peace, Mac

Week-18 “Everybody wants to go to Heaven”

Humanity is life and as such prone to death, both of which are uncertain in the details, but for certain, you cannot have one without the other, that is the simple truth. Some of us live like there will be no tomorrow running at wide open throttle and some of us are afraid to truly feel alive, afraid of our own shadow and can’t seem to get out of our own way.

One thing for sure is most of us forget or maybe we are unable to realize at all, that quite literally all any of us have is now, right now! that one moment in which we are currently existing. None of us knows for sure, when that last day, the exact hour or minute that death will come for us and for me at least I am just fine with the not knowing.

My Granddaddy; Marshall (Mac) Eugene McCauley was full of what we in the family referred to as Mac’isms and other Great Truths of Life. I remember very well being witness to many of his truths as a young man, but one in particular which is fitting for this week happened while having breakfast with him and my Father in a dumpy little restaurant outside of Lafayette Louisiana, the two of them were on a last run road trip zigzagging across the country and traveling together, Mac was 91 years old at the time and on his last big adventure with my dad, hell it was the last big adventure for both of them even if they did not realize at the time, I had been in New Orleans on business, and so I caught up with the two of them during our travels.

While we sat enjoying our breakfast and some conversation together, my father remarked to my grandfather saying “Dad! that’s a lot of jelly you are putting on your toast”, (everyone who knew Mac knew he loved his jelly) Mac replied “ya it’s probably going to kill me some day I just hope it’s not today”, you know! he said “Everybody Wants to Go To Heaven But Nobody Wants To Go Right Now”. I have appreciated the exercises for the last couple of weeks and have spent a little time reflecting the here and now and have found great peace in the process. I leave you today with some fun and other quotable quotes by some of the other Great Mac’s through the ages for your amusement, enjoyment or simple reflection. Peace, Mac

“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo.
“So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

“Death ends a life, not a relationship.”
― Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie

“I’m the one that’s got to die when it’s time for me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.”
― Jimi Hendrix, Jimi Hendrix – Axis: Bold as Love

“I’m not afraid of death; I just don’t want to be there when it happens.”
― Woody Allen

“To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.”
― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone

“I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.”
― Mark Twain

“When he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun.”
― William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet (Shakespeare Collection)